Not in a good mood.

I feel like crap. Literally. I should be doing my homework right now but I cannot be bothered. I have a bad cold, sore throat, ear infection, headache and lack of sleep. Usually, I would go write a song about it. But I'm not in the mood to even do that.
I obviously have problems.
My life is getting so complicated. Questions are asked everyday; Does my Mum care? Who are my real friends? Is my Dad going to leave? Will I live up to the schools expectations?
I am constantly searching for answers to these questions and I'm getting nothing. My constantly runny nose does not help.
Today, we had a citezenship day. We looked at being realistic. I am very realistic. I want to get into the music but I know I have no chance of being a singer. I like to write. I learnt that I could mix my love of music and writing together to write some songs. I also love the whole backstage, on tour type thing so being a concert tour manager or worker would be a nice job.
See, I have plans and back-up plans. I know how to reach my goals and I always try to find ways to get to them, throughout tricky paths.
I also know I could never get a massive house to live in because, being realistic, I would need to earn the money. This whole day is a repeat of my daily thinking. But its nice to write it down and talk about it with other people. I can't do that often.
I think I'm going to go do discarded homework and hope for a miracle.
I need inspiration to write some songs.
Wish me luck.
-P


P.S Heres one of my songs:
http://www.twitlonger.com/show/126646f2ddbb3f4caf0106b14d139104